confused

Others may think i am really happy after i left him, infact i am not. Every minute my mind couldn't stop and recall those moments i shared with him. Be it to be happy or sad. Memories just filled my whole self. Frankly speaking, i am no longer angry.
I felt very scared yet trying so hard to stay strong. My life currently is so upside down till i cannot feel anything but scare.
WEAK is the word to describe me when i meet someone i really like. I am willing to forgive, forget and accept how i am treated without asking for any return. I will always be the one giving in even its not my fault. Its my nature. Therefore, i am always ending up being taken advantage of.
Now, i doubt myself of what i had decided previously. It's really so tough to move on..

Boy, if you are reading my blog, i just want to tell you i accepted your apology and sincerely hope you will turn over a new leaf. Its never too late to stop cheating.
I didn't reply your sms is because i really do not know how to reply you after everything. Take Care and All the Best!