emotional upset

Struggling with my own emotions had been really a different task for me. Alot of things are running through my whole mind now making me feel like drinking a dozen of beers and fucking get myself drunk. I need to report for work at 345AM later and yet i am blogging over here. I am under alot of pressure that nobody will understand at all.. There are words i really wish to express out but yet i know i have to kept it to myself for good.
Human changes too fast, its too scary. Lies are almost everywhere..