work.. boring

In 3hrs time i am heading off to work again! Once the thought of it makes mi feel irritated and digusted. Long flights really burns off all my energy.. Each n everytime when i am back, my body ache like nobody business and i felt so weak. Please let me win some totos to pay off all my credit card bills so that i can resign from this sick job.
I am in very bad mood these few days yet i am trying very hard to remain cool and calm. When i just need someone to talk to me, the person i think of is always busy. Ended up, its either i went to bed again and again or i smoke again n again =( I am a bad child.